Chapter two

Today was the day before my birthday, but I had a party. It was early so that my boyfriend Finian could come. He is going on vacation tomorrow and will be gone for a week...I have to go back to the states in a week. I might not see him again. He is the first man I've ever truly loved. We said goodbye in the park where we first met at four days ago. Those four days seemed like a wonderful dream I never wanted to wake up from...sadly it seems I've woken up now and my heart aches. I know that it wasn't goodbye for ever. I can still talk to him online....but I may never be able to hug him again, smell him again, or kiss him again. I thought I was inlove once before with another, but I never cried like this-hurt like this when I left him after two years. I only spent four days dating Finian, it shouldn't hurt this much. I know that this pain will subside soon and I will get on with my life, but I will never forget him....and there will always be a part of heart that belongs to him.

Goodbye Finian...talk to you online soon.


Aishiteru. Ja ne.